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drifty

so, it's been awhile.
i've been pretty busy/dealing with a lot of stuff and it's been hard to figure what to say here. there's sort of too much after i've missed a few weeks, you know?
i've been having a love/hate relationship with school lately. I sort of despise it at this point, though I'm enjoying the actual work that i'm doing at my practicum. but the academics, the reading, the impending comps and dissertations and internships and licensure...that stuff makes me want to crawl under a blanket with my DVR and never come out. it's really hard at this point to feel that if i didn't get this degree i'd be sad about it later, though i know that's true.
i have a client at my practicum who had a major breakthrough last week, and she was visibly nervous that she wouldn't get to come anymore because things have changes so much for her since we started working together. it really made we want to cry, b/c i could feel so strongly in the room how much our relationship has helped her and freed her and made her stronger. it was incredible to feel that i had done something significant for her, and that's what keeps me going to class and reading the thousands of pages and dealing with the fears of whether or not i can cut it. and today my supervisor praised me (a rare occurance) for the way i dealt with a pretty severely ill client. she told me she was impressed that i wasn't scared of how ill this person is and could sit with and deal with it, and that i assessed her well. it was like the heavens had opened up and a golden light was shining around me, it was awesome. of course it remains to be seen how well i handle her tomorrow, but at least for tonight i can feel like i'm doing something right.
you know, i think i need a vacation. someplace tropical. things have felt so crazy lately, and i've felt kind of drifty (not sure that's really a word) and ambiguous and vague and unsure. not cool.

i found another funny website, snipets of conversation that people her around nyc. it's hilarious, if you browse around a bit you can find some real gems! I'll post the link over there ------>

hahaha...

Some more of my favorite finds from Found Magazine....


and my MOST favorite...


This one was found taped to a stop sign, apparently written by some neighborhood kids who were wise beyond their years :o). I love it.

Uuuuuuuuuugggghhhhhh

Oh my god. I'm tired. I have been going nonstop since Thanksgiving, my apartment is a disaster area, I have no idea what today's date is, and I haven't done much but write papers and take tests for the past two weeks. On the plus side, I have lost a few pounds on this, the final-two-weeks-of-the-semester diet. Ugh.
I'm now in the process of writing my last paper. It's due in 5 hours. I just started it yesterday. It has to be 20 pages long. So you can see why I'm posting a blog entry NOW, of all times. Yes, I have absolutely lost my mind.
There've been some interesting things going on in my life, even though I feel like a blob of psychology knowledge with no personality or anything useful to contribute to life. For example, Byron went to Spain for a week, and I missed him, and then he came back, and I dreamed about weddings for two days straight. Weird. I think I was just waiting for his plane to crash horribly in the Atlantic, and when I knew he was actually back, my subconscious was like "oh, yay, so that means you ARE getting married, then!" Based on my dreaming, though, I think I know exactly what kind of wedding dress I want, so that's something :o). But based on my dreams, there's also going to be an Asian woman fighting with me about something throughout the whole process....not sure what that was about...Huh.
Okay, this is stupid, and probably the worst blog post ever, but oh well. It was a nice break from writing about Evidence Based Practice in Psychology, which I will be GLAD to send you a 20 page paper on for your reading pleasure in about 5 hours.

Cognitive Disonnance

Do you ever have a day where you feel guilty that you didn't do enough, but at the same time you did do some things, you just didn't actually start doing them until half of the day was over? That was my day. Well...my weekend. It'd started off well, yesterday I wrote a reaction paper (boo...hiss) that was due earlier in the week and sent it off, first thing in the morning, and then I did some reading and got my thoughts together for a project I need to move forward on for one of my classes...but then I spent the rest of the day watching my boyfriend play this video game called "Fable", and watched SNL. That's it. I felt v. v. guilty this morning. But, ironically, this self-flagellation did not kick start me into being productive, oh no! No, instead I stared mournfully at the pile of laundry (clean!) from the day before that were still left unfolded, and the bins of winter clothes that had yet to be taken out and organized and sifted through, though it's definitely cold now and I actually need those sweaters, and did I fold those clothes or empty those bins? Uh, no. Instead I puttered around online for awhile, then watched my boyfriend play the same freakin' video game until, like, 2 in the afternoon. But then, then a miraculous thing occured...I did the dishes, and lo, the bottom of the kitchen sink was visable! And then I sorted all of my winter things and PUT SOME OF THEM AWAY! Such joy, such bliss! It was truly magnificent, such a great feat of extraordinary wonder! I...am...awesome!


And then I woke up and realized that I all I did today was the stuff that I should have done yesterday, and that I'm really lazy. :o)

I knew I liked Joy Behar

So, this morning on The View, one of the hot topics was about this: Televangilist Pat Robertson told the citizens of Dover, PA that they had rejected God by voting their school board out of office for supporting "intelligent design" and warned them Thursday not to be surprised if disaster struck !

[Intelligent Design, btw, is the idea that certain forms in nature are too complex to have evolved through natural selection and must have been created by a "designer." Opponents say it is the latest attempt by conservatives to introduce religion into science curricula, which I wholeheartedly agree with.]

Anyway, this man, Robertson, actually said:

"I'd like to say to the good citizens of Dover: If there is a disaster in your area, don't turn to God, you just rejected Him from your city."

Ridiculous and absurd. And then, on the View, only Joy Behar was saying how ridiculous it is for people to think it's okay to teach something that has no scientific base in public classrooms! Elisabeth Hasselbeck, Star Jones, and Meredith Viera were all crowing about how Intelligent Design should be taught in schools too, so that then kids have a choice of what to believe. Only Joy said that those things should be taught in religious classes, not in science classes, and the rest of them were all gaining up on her!! I couldn't believe it.

I personally think that it's completely fine if people want to believe in Intelligent Design, or want to try to combine theories of evolution with theories of divine creation, whatever floats your boat, you know? But to think that public schools are the place for teaching impressionable children something that is fueled only by political agendas and attempts to make Christianity reign supreme in this country is disgusting and pathetic, in my humble opinion. Uck.

Feel free to leave comments on this issue, if it stirs anything up for you...

lost and FOUND

Hola! So, as I ultimately decide that I'm just not writing this reaction paper, I stumbled upon another website sort of like www.postsecret.com, except it's for stuff people have found that gives a snapshot into other's lives, something that endlessly fascinates me, so check it out, it's pretty funny/entertaining/thought-provoking...what more could you ask for? :o)
Here's my favorite so far:

http://www.foundmagazine.com

well, whaddaya know...

Yikes. Go figure that my last post was about how ready I was to go back to school, and since school started I've been too crazed to post anything to my lovely readers! (are there any readers anymore? if not, I wouldn't blame you, since this freakin' page has looked the same for the past 2+ months)
So. This semester is harsh, which I knew it would be, I'm taking tons of crap I have no interest in, which obviously makes it soooooo easy to get my work done, since I'm so enthralled. Also, I'm working at a college counseling center, and am finally starting to feel like a psychologist, but, newsflash, it's hard and exhausting to be a psychologist. So, I'm tired, but excited that I'm starting to do things, but it's tiring. And I've joined a singing group, the Queens Chorale, which takes up more time, too. I'm still glad I'm doing it, because I needed to be singing, it makes me feel a lot better in general (you know, self care and all of that), but it's sad b/c I'm sort of too busy and wrapped up in all my school stuff to really get to know the girls in the group, which is part of what I wanted to join it for, you know? But it turns it that it's not just me, I was talking to Amanda, who's at my practicum with me, and she said that she feels the same way, like we're too busy, and then too tired, to be social creatures anymore, which is bad, b/c you always feel better when you're around people and laughing and sharing and stuff, but lately that just seems like more work. I just want to come home and sit, and watch reality TV. (and Gilmore Girls, and Nip/tuck).
Well, but anyway, I'm still alive everyone! I've been having several judgmental thoughts about Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes (I really think I should buy a "Free Katie" shirt, she is soooo brainwashed), and I've been reading www.pinkisthenewblog.com religiously, that is such a funny website, if you're like me and love reading about celebrity gossip and are slightly embarrassed by it, but you still do it anyway, check it out! And B and I have been taking ballroom dancing lessons at Arthur Murray, soooooo much fun, I absolutely love it, and we're pretty good too, which is surprising, and helps it to be fun :o).
And I'm actually going home for Thanksgiving this year! This might not seem like a big deal, but I didn't get to go home last year, and it was sad to me, and I've been feeling this tug to go home that I just couldn't shake off, so I bought my ticket yesterday, and I feel so much better. I definitely need a respite, and I miss my family, so I'm looking forward to the trip. Yay!

So here's a picture of my Halloween costume. I was a 60s-era go-go dancer (i had boots on later) with beauty-queen aspirations. Ironically, no one even asked me what I was at the party I went to! Ha!